"And even though you know your heart is breaking For a little longer still you must be whole to love the life that's given for the taking And to give the love the living's given for"

 Sometimes we are afraid of giving up our center and sacrificing the largest parts of ourselves, but at times we realize that this is the most plausible and necessary action. I have decided that part of my life must be gone and my heart must return to the vital resources it once knew. I cannot please them and I won't try.

Don't let anyone shoot down the desires of your heart because they are "uneducated and foolish". Follow your heart and do what you have to do for God and for yourself. No one has better advice for your future other than God. If He is a part of your love life and happiness, that is all that matters and you need to pursue it! Your heart belongs to God and no relationship, even family, is worth giving up the chance of true sacrificing love that can never be severed.

As of now, I officially quit the fight to win the unattainable prize. My life makes no sense to you and nor yours to me. I have to do what I have to do for me. I have to believe that God will hold me upright next to his heart. Your internal struggles leaking out have exhausted all that I am. I can no longer bare your pain or the misery of any concern regarding you or your mistakes. Please know that I will always love you and I am always here. I cannot accredit any words that have been offered by you nor abide by any of your advice that aids a vain effort. The ocean my tears and grief from you my sand, all that has injured me is drowned. I now part to the desert. Dry sand unknown to me is a fresh life that is untouched by misery. There is plenty more crying to be had but from now on, in joy. You are on your own and God is there if you need anything. True sacrifice is understood only in its immediate action put in to place. You are a burden I must purge from my life and I refuse to inflict any more of your pain on myself or the relationship with my Father who loves me. Peace be with you, Prayers are endless, I love you!

And one day faith, too, shall become obsolete