An end to you and me

As of now, I officially quit the fight to win the unattainable prize. My life makes no sense to you and nor yours to me. I have to do what I have to do for me. I have to believe that God will hold me upright next to his heart. Your internal struggles leaking out have exhausted all that I am. I can no longer bare your pain or the misery of any concern regarding you or your mistakes. Please know that I will always love you and I am always here. I cannot accredit any words that have been offered by you nor abide by any of your advice that aids a vain effort. The ocean my tears and grief from you my sand, all that has injured me is drowned. I now part to the desert. Dry sand unknown to me is a fresh life that is untouched by misery. There is plenty more crying to be had but from now on, in joy. You are on your own and God is there if you need anything. True sacrifice is understood only in its immediate action put in to place. You are a burden I must purge from my life and I refuse to inflict any more of your pain on myself or the relationship with my Father who loves me. Peace be with you, Prayers are endless, I love you!